Its funny, some people think that I'm this cold hearted person when really if they would actually get to know the real me they would find that I'm funny, loveable, and very kind hearted. I'm the kind of person who thinks about others first and me last. I love to be around people and learn new things. Over the past couple of years I have come across so many different kinds of people that I didn't know even exsited because I grew up in a small town and everyone was pretty much the same. I thought life was boring and that there was nothing out there. Finally I opened up and experienced new things and realized that the world wasn't as small as I thought it was. On the down side I also found out that people aren't really who they say they are and that they can be really mean. See, where I grew up everyone knew eachother and because of that I thought that everyone was kind and outspoken and let everyone know who they really are but in all reality everyone isn't like that. Ever since I was 16 I have worked hard and always had the finer things in life; new car, expensive clothes, lots of friends, and a great life. But the last couple of years my life has taken a dramatic change. I no longer have the finer things in life. Right now I'm in a slump that I definatlely will be getting out of soon. I'm around people who aren't who they say they are. Truthfully I don't even want to be around these people because I am not the type of person they think I am or that they want me to be. I just need to move on to the next stage of my life. I need to start making some dramatic changes that are going to make me truely happy. I plan on getting a car soon, getting a job and going back to school. I'm actually going to go to school to become a therapist. I haven't told anyone this b/c like I said before these people are just wrong for me and they look down on me. They seem to think that I cannot do anything and that they are better than me but I'm not going to let it bother me b/c I know what kind of person that I am and I know my potential. I know that I'm going to make it far in this world and that just in a matter of time I am going to be really truely happy. Alright I'll stop for now.

This is the entry that I put about my in myspace.

Toodles!

Spring is just around the corner.  The days are getting longer and warmer (sometimes).  I don't like it when the days get longer but for some reason I'm looking forward to it this year.  Then again it may be a different story when the time comes.  I've been getting really antsy b/c I should be getting my car this wk.  I really miss driving.  I miss just taking off with the windows rolled down, the wind blowing my hair all around, and the music loud on the radio.  You just feel so free when your driving down the road.  Man, I really miss driving.  I miss working.  I miss having my own cell phone.  I miss having money.  I miss shopping. Most of all I miss the feeling you get when you found your one true love, and that feeling you get when he tells you that he loves you for the very first time. 

Ok, I'm gonna stop for now.  I'm depressing myself.

Toodles!

Has anyone heard the Trace Adkins song "Honky Tonk Badonkadonk"?   I just love the song and the video.  Ever since I was 19 everyone has said that I have a badonkadonk.  I used to think that it was bad then I figured out that it wasn't when everyone started telling me that they wish that they had my ass.  Its nice and round and bubbly.  I just love my ass.  I want to loose weight but not my ass.  Anyway everyone has been telling me since that song has come out that I should have been in the video shaking my ass and that its my song.  I have limewire on my computer so I downloaded the video and now I constantly play it while I jog on the treadmill so that maybe next summer I can go to a country bar in short shorts and bandana for a shirt (since I have a nice chest) and with my cowgirl boots and dance to the song in front of everyone. lol  That song just gives me so much energy and puts me in a good mood for some reason. 

This is like my 3rd entry for the day.  I'm really bored that's why I'm writing so much lol.

Toodles!

As I said before I was going to write about my "supernatural" experiences so here it is.  The first time I experienced anything was when I was a senior in high school.  My two friends and I were headed to a party one friday night after a football game.  It was in a field back from the road.  When we got there we headed down a path and in the middle of the path there was burning coals and broken glass bottles.  There was noone around and we couldn't understand where everyone was.  The party was to have started at 12 and it was only 12:30.  We decided to drive around the field and ended up facing this cemetary so we back up and pulled the car up this little hill to turn it around.  When we pulled up the little hill we were facing this tall building then all of a sudden the car started shaking violently.  Shawn tried backing the car up but it wouldn't move.  We were freaking out and was finally able to move the car and we bolted out of there.  A couple of weeks later I told another friend about what had happened and he said that he wanted to go there and check it out so I took him there.  We drove down the same path that my friends and I had taken before and couldn't find that building anywhere so we drove down to the cemetary.  I put the car in park and waited to see if anything happened.  We sat there for about 5 mins then all of a sudden white lights started coming towards us.  They just appeared out of nowhere and we didn't stay to find out what they were.  That was the last time that I was there.  Another time that something had happened was after I graduated.  A guy that my friend Shawn worked with was really into that kind of stuff and wanted me to take him there and I turned him down right away.  No way was I going back there.  We started hanging out and he took me to this tunnel where there was supposedly a man that haunted it.  The story goes that he was homeless and one night he was sleeping in the tunnel and got hit by the train and now walks back and fourth through the tunnel every night and when you get a few yards into the tunnel you can see a white light.  The tunnel is very long so its not the other end of the tunnel where the light is coming from.  Noone ever made it far into the tunnel b/c the story also says that if you do go in there at night you won't come out.  We decided to go there at night (being the best time) and I couldn't even get near the tunnel.  I got the worst feeling in the world and I ran.  I ran all the way down the road and down another street.  The guy came after me with my car and asked what the hell happened to me and I couldn't even talk.  I was bawling and scared out of my wits.  Another night that we were together we went to a park to just chill b/c we didn't feel like doing anything.  We were sitting there on the bench and  looking over the hill.  One of the trees lit up and we just figured that it was lights coming on from the ground.  The lights soon went out though and another tree that was closer to us did the same thing.  We then decided that maybe it wasn't lights b/c of the way the lights were coming on and going off and we got in the car and drove right beside the tree that was closer to us.  There was nothing on or in the ground but mulch around the tree.  I always kept a flashlight in my car just in case and I shown the light on the ground b/c of course it was dark outside and the only light was the moon so I thought that maybe I just didn't see the lights but there was still nothing there and then of course we left.  I already said about what happened to me in the house that I was living in in Charleroi and what's been happening here.  There's one other thing though.  When I was 16 I met my first love and our song soon became "Kiss Me" by Sixpense None the Richer.  The reason for it was b/c every time we were together we would hear that song and when we weren't together we never heard it.  After that and even after we broke up the only time that we both heard that song was when we saw eachother.  We knew that when we heard that song we were going to run into eachother that day.  Is this sheer coincidence or something else?

Toodles!

Well the new property manager sent out plumbers yesterday to check out the kitchen sink, the dishwasher, and the garbage disposal.  They are all shot.  He said that it is going to take more to fix them than to put new ones in, so they are coming back today to put all new stuff in.  I'm so excited.  I have to do the dishes by hand in another sink which is bad b/c I also have to rinse in the same sink so I'm going through a lot of dish detergent.  This apartment is set up for dishwasher only, no doing dishes by hand.  I'm happy b/c now we can put most of the food in the disposal instead of putting it in the garbage can and stinking up the kitchen and I can get all the dishes done at one time.  Kinda shitty timing though b/c the lease is up on March 1 here.  We've been living here since last March of course and not to long afterwards the couples in the other two apartments moved out b/c they're leases were up and the other property manager couldn't get anyone to move back in, so the landlord fired him b/c she was getting a lot of complaints about him and she hired a new property manager.  He was on the job for two days and found tenants for both apartments.  The one tenant already moved in and the other is getting ready to move in.  The property manager seems really nice.  I only wish that she would have gotten him sooner.  This place is totally shitty.  Every month I have to put on a face mask, and gloves to scrub the window in the bedroom b/c it leakes and there is always mold growing in it.  It is so disgusting and I am so tired of having to clean it all the time.  I just cleaned it again on Saturday and it looked like I never touched it.  We've told the old property manager about it but his words were "its not going to hurt you".  Matt told me to keep my mouth shut so I did but if he didn't I would have blown up on Rodney.  I did some research on the internet and what I seemed to find is that the mold in the room shouldn't hurt me but still my mom is always worried about me cleaning it.  I am going to tell the new property manager though that if I do get sick from cleaning it that there is going to be problems and they aren't going to want to deal with me.  I know that its not his fault but they need to get it fixed.  I'm also going to tell the landlord about it.  Well I guess that I'm done bitching for now.

Toodles!

Woohoo, Steelers won yesterday.  I was such a great game.  I was on the edge of my seat and yelling and so were my parent's.  I couldn't believe some of the things that were happening, especially in the second half when Manning brought out the big guns and was throwing some good passes.  There were a couple of shitty calls but the ole' Steeler's came through.  Now we're off to Denver.  I really hope that the Steeler's go the the Superbowl b/c Hank is singing in the half time show and he is a huge Steeler's fan.  I can just imagine what kind of show he would put on if the Steeler's were there. 

I decided to go and visit my parent's yesterday and watched the game with my mom and dad and on the way over Matt and I saw a couple of trucks painted black and gold with balloons all over them and one of those huge blow up Steeler's dolls in the back of them.  It was great.  I just love this area during football season, especially when the Steeler's are going strong.  Well, we'll see what goes on in Denver.  Can't wait for the game.

Toodles!

Today is the big Steelers game against the Colts.  Everyone is getting ready for the game.  It's all over the news and every house is all decked out with Steelers colors.  The game starts at 1 and the Steelers are going to kick the Colts' asses!!!!  I can't wait.  I am so excited. 

Geico is the most annoying company in the world!!!  Seeing the ad when I just logged on reminded me.  Every time that I see a Geico commercial I mute the tv and always want to call up the company to complain.  Tell them to get a life and get some better commercials, tell them that they are annoying and that I'm going to get a petition started just to get their stupid commercials off the air.  Snickers commercials are getting that way too.  What makes me even more irritated is that every person I know has called Geico to get a rate b/c they always say that they can save you a ton of money on car insurance and the rate that they give these people are sky high.  It is so ridiculous.  That is total false advertisement.  For example:  Matt drives and suv, has never wrecked, is 28, and the rate that they gave him was $250 more than Progressive.  I've never been so irritated about something in my entire life.  I mean seriously these commercials drive me nuts.  I don't know why, maybe its only me.  Is there anyone out there that's sick of these commercials too or am I an outcast?

Toodles!

Ok so lately I've been really freaked out about being here alone.  I'm never like that but some freaky shit has been going on lately.  The other night about 1:30 in the morning the doorbell rings.  Matt and I look outside and there is no car anywhere, the outside light was off and there were no lights on in the house so I got really scared.  The person on the other side of the door rang the door bell for 5 mins, no joke, so finally Matt answers the door and its this guy looking for another address, an address that isn't even around here, (all the addresses around here are the same, well, except for the numbers but he was looking for another road, and what doesn't make sense is that you can't make a wrong turn around here b/c this block is just one big circle).  What freaked me out was that there was no car outside and there were no lights on in the house but yet he still comes up to ring the door bell for 5 mins at 1:30 in the morning.  So the next day I'm sitting on the couch watching tv and Matt was up here on the computer and all of a sudden I got this eerie feeling that someone was behind me and I got up and ran up the stairs as fast as I could, I still had the feeling though but when it finally went away ten minutes later I felt perfectly fine.  Its really creepy b/c the last time I got that feeling was when I was living in Charleroi and when I went to bed one night, I saw two figures on the wall and for some reason it just reminded me of a mother and daughter.  A few days later I went in to dining room and got in the cabinet to make out the bills, (my mom was there with me)  and I found a memoriam in the drawer (which was never there cause my mom and I scrubbed that house top to bottom when I first moved in).  The thing looked brand new and I decided to read it and it said that there was an elderly woman that lived in the house with her daughter and one night she died in the house and it was in the 60's.  I'm really superstitious and my mom is too so we decided to put it back in the drawer even though we knew that it wasn't there when we cleaned the house.  Anyway, lately at night when I'm here by myself I've been hearing pounding on the door outside but its not a pounding where someone is on the other side knocking, and it hasn't even been windy so I know that its not the wind.  Then last night I was in the kitchen washing the dishes and I kept hearing things up in the bedroom, like someone was walking around and it wasn't the cats cause I keep the door shut and they were laying in the kitchen with me.  I got so creeped out that I ended up keeping a butcher knife beside me the rest of the night till Matt got home.  Then finally today when I first came up here to get on the computer I heard this weird pounding noise outside so I decided to go out and see what it was.  There was this guy in the far apartment of this building in the upstairs room pounding on the window and it wasn't a steady pounding either, it was weird, so I decided to walk to the mailbox and look up at the window and there he was standing naked ( these windows go almost all the way to the floor and that's how I knew that he was naked) so I walked to the mailbox and when i turned around again he was gone.  What's even weirder is that I didn't hear a car outside at all today in front of the building and I can always hear cars outside.  Ok, I just went outside for a sec b/c a van pulled in so I decided to go and ask if someone was in the apartment and they said no that they are working on the electricity and they've been the only ones there.  Ok, now I'm really freaked and I know what your thinking, "she weird", but I'm not.  In another entry I'm going write about my experiences about this stuff and maybe I'll convince you that I'm not weird. 

Toodles!

Ok so my boyfriend was a total ass this morning.  He wouldn't go and get me cigs before he went to work.  Of course I still don't have a car (being the loser that I am) so I couldn't go.  Finally after going 4 hrs without a cig I decided to walk to the store.  Its only a half hour walk and it had stopped raining and it was sunny outside and started to warm up so I thought that it would be ok.  So I just took my good ole time walking cause it was really nice outside and I just enjoyed the weather b/c it didn't feel at all like winter.  When I got to the store I decided to get bread and milk as well (stupid me).  That's when it started.  I walked outside and the bag broke and my cigs, bread, milk, and the drink I bought fell all over the place.  Then it started raining and hard to boot.  I had taken a sweatshirt with me just in case it cooled down cause the weather has been really weird lately.  So here I was walking up this huge hill with the milk in one hand, the bread and drink in the other and my cigs in my pockets.  I was so wet, my hair was drenched and so were my clothes.  I just know that I'm am going to end up sick again tomorrow.  I just got over being sick.  I am so mad at Matt right now. 

He has been such a jerk lately.  He decided that he wasn't going to pay the phone bill and told me not to pay it either so the phone is shut off.  I can't get hold of my mom to set up a time to get my ins and title for the car.  I finally have enough money plus some to get it and then this happens.  Matt and I decided that we were going to part when his lease is up on March 1.  That gives me a little over a month to get a job and get an apt.  I sat down and figured some stuff up and in order for me to get an apt by  March 1, I'm going to have to work like 3 jobs.  Reason for 3 jobs is that I'm going to have to pay for the deposit and 1st months rent for the place, electricity to be turned on, the car, the ins, groceries for when I first move there, a phone, and a few necessities such as towels, cleaning products, dishes.  I only have a tv, an entertainment center, and a couch for the place.  This really sucks!  I'm not going to even go into details as to why it took me so long to get the car so I'm just going to end it here.

Toodles!

Well, the last wk has been so boring.  I've been sick so I've been sleeping a lot.  I really don't have much to write about but if I don't put something in here I know that I'm gonna be to lazy to put something in here later.  So here it is, every once in awhile I get on the internet and look at different beauty sites.  I like to find homemade recipes for the body such as for the skin, hair, etc.  They're cheap to make and a lot of them work really good.  One thing that I absolutely cannot find is a recipe for coffee butter.  It's supposed to be anti-ageing and a great lip conditioner.  I have used google, ask jeeves, mamma, and looked at like a billion beauty sites but absolutely nowhere has the recipe.  Heck I've even tried food recipe sites.  Does anyone have a recipe for this?  If so please let me know. 

A couple of days ago Matt dragged me out of the house to go grocery shopping so I picked up some things for cabbage soup.  I didn't think that it would turn out really good but its great.  My mom makes it all the time and I missed it so I got the recipe off her.  It's also supposed to be a diet soup and your only supposed to eat certain foods with it.  I've been eating only the soup and half a bowl fills me up.  I'm hoping to loose some more weight. 

Well, I guess I'd better jump off here and get the house cleaned since I haven't had the energy to clean it.  And its so messy b/c of course Matt is a total pig. 

Toodles!

Ok, so I blogged about my friend the other day and how she is, and today she just showed up here talking to me and we were looking on the net to see about finding out if my cat is pregnant.  I am just so confused.  I mean, I read her myspace blog and saw how she feels about me.  So now I'm thinking that either she didn't want to come out and and tell me how she feels or I'm just blowing things out of proportion.  I just don't know.  I'm definately not talking to her about it b/c I've tried talking to her about my problems before and she just doesn't listen.  First she says that she understands and she stops for a bit then she just starts right back up doing it again.  I'm not a mean person so I can't just tell her that I don't want to be friends with her.  I mean, set all things aside and she is a pretty cool person and fun to hang out with, but I still have the same feelings that I did the other day.  Yes, I know that I'm complaining and won't do anything about it but you see that I've complained before and took other's advice and did something about it and it just didn't work.  I haven't called her cause I've been upset.  To boot she is just one of those people that I despise.  You know the type, the type that when they get a boyfriend they blow off their friends.  I just can't stand it when people do that.  Maybe its just me.  But what makes me even more mad is that she spends more time with her boyfriend than me (which that's not the part that i'm totally mad about) and I'm the one who introduced them (what makes me mad is that she can't even tell me how their doing or come over)  I mean she does come over but since I've introduced them (in November), she has come over 3 times and only called about 5.  I don't expect her to make me her #1 priority (which I know it sounds that way) but what I do expect is for her to be my friend if she wants me to be, and when she asks me to do something and I say yes then do it with me or at least give me to common courtesy of letting me know that she changed her mind.  When she came over on Christmas Eve she asked if Matt and I wanted to go to the bar with her boyfriend and her so I asked Matt and we said yes and when the time came she didn't even bother picking up the phone.  Then she just shows up here today without a phone call or anything.  I don't like it when people just show up here without calling and neither does Matt.  I hadn't taken a shower yet and the house wasn't clean b/c I've been sick the last couple of days and just didn't feel like doing anything.  Ok, well I guess I'm done complaining.

About my cat, I found out that she is pregnant and she should be due around March.  I also found out that most likely there isn't going to be anything wrong with the kittens.  I read at a lot of sites they all said that a lot of breeders inbreed b/c it somehow helps with the gene pool.  I forget what it completly said.  The last time that she had kittens she had seven of them so I'm hoping that she's not going to   again.  She's about 3-5 wks along.  She has all the signs, morning sickness, sleeps more, belly is getting bigger, eats more, and her nipples are getting pink.  I have to do some reading up on labor so when the time comes I'll know what to do.  I also have to get Matt to take her to the vet to find out for total sure that she's pregnant.  I don't know if he will cause I told him for I don't know how long that we needed to get her to the vet before so that she didn't get pregnant.  Well, can't change the past.  Just have to figure out what we're going to do with the kittens.

Toodles!

Well, I finally got a myspace account.  It took forever to set up.  I wanted to see if I could meet new people in my area so I decided to creat a profile.  I'm still working on it to make it better and still trying to figure out how to meet people and get people to see my blog.  check it out if ya want  www.myspace.com/dreamangel1572

I hope everyone had a good new year.  Mine was good.  The very first thing that I did when that ball hit the end was take a shot of tequila.  Figured I would start the new year off with a drink and not a kiss lol.  Well, I guess I'm gonna split.

Toodles!

You meet someone and you get an opinion of them and then you get to know that person (or so you thought) and you become friends (again, or so you thought).  You think the person is one way then you find out that they are not.  You find out that they are a lying, backstabbing fucker (pardon the language).  With the kind of friends that I have had I have come to the point that I don't want friends anymore.  You try to be the best person that you can be and its never good enough.  They make you think that they like you then you do some searching and find out that they can just care less if they are your friend.  They say one thing and mean another.  Sometimes they are your friend b/c they feel sorry for you and think that you need someone in your life to keep you happy.  Well guess again.  I don't need anyone feeling sorry for me.  I don't need someone who thinks that they are better than me or that they are better looking than me or that they can do everything and I can't.  I've been a hard worker, a good friend, and have always worked for what I've wanted.  I never ask anyone for anything no matter how much I need it.  I had a brand new car when I turned 18 (I totalled it the next winter), I had my own place by the time I was 20 and I was doing good until I met some guy (that's where I made my mistake but I've learned from it).  I've pretty much been by myself for I don't know how long now and I'm doing pretty damn good.  I have my cats, my crocheting, my blogging and sometimes Matt and will soon have my car and a job so I don't need anyone feeling fucking sorry for me.  I'm a good person and I always put people first.  I try to help people out and try to give the best advice that I can possibly give.  Yes sometimes I'm irritable but that doesn't make me a bad person.  Yes sometimes I have a bad outlook on life but who wouldn't when they've been through what I've been through in only 2 years?  I try my best to make the best of situations but sometimes its hard.  Yes I know that there are people who have it a hell of a lot worse than me, but I have a right to be down in the dumps sometimes, and I have a right to have a true friend not a so called friend who feels sorry for me.  I can make it in this world, I dont' need anyone to make me happy and to fill up my day.  I have goals that I am going to fulfill.  I know what I truely want and I know how to get it.  There are going to be bumps along the way and I'm on one now but I'll make it with or without any friends. I'm not saying that having friends is a bad thing.  What I am saying is that if you want to be someone's friend then be that person's friend.  Be a friend that does care.  Other's have feelings just like you.  Remember the old saying "do to others what you would want them to do to you" (or however the saying goes). 

Toodles!

I talked to my mom today and she told me about a bridge in Washington that collapsed over the interstate at 6pm the other night.  It was an absolute miracle that noone was hurt especially with it being rush hour.  So what I did was pull up the local news on the internet and watched the clip about the bridge.  I was shocked at what I saw.  I have always traveled that route to Washington from my parents house and now I'm just speechless.  It looks like there is a huge concrete "V" in the middle of Interstate 70, you can see the pic of it in my photos.  Here is some info that was on the new site:

When it comes to the state's infrastructure, the partial collapse of the bridge onto I-70 in Washington County underscores a huge, expensive problem statewide.

The commonwealth owns 25,000 bridges.

The state says one in four of those bridges is structurally deficient.

Pennsylvania's budget this year is $24.3 billion.

Experts say it would cost more than $7 billion to repair and replace older bridges.

In an interview today with KDKA's Jon Delano, Governor Rendell said there is one way to make a quick fix to the bridge problem.

“You know, the only alternative we would have to put a significant amount of additional money into play, would be to raise the gas tax,” Rendell said. “That's an awfully difficult thing for voters or citizens to be asked to do - to pay more on the gas tax.”

With gas taxes now nearing 45 cents per gallon, there is a surprising amount of support regarding higher taxes to fix bridges.

“It sounds like a nice compromise,” said Della Spoat, of Kittanning.

“As a driver, I'd pay anything to improve the roads around Western Pennsylvania,” said Walt Rydzon, of Mt. Washington.

“A few extra cents a gallon isn't going to hurt that much...that's what I think,” said Dylan Nasse, of Plum Borough.

“The bridges and everything should have been reinforced and done right the first time, instead of doing everything two and three times,” said Ellen Magotta, of Beechview.

PennDOT says the state expects to spend about $400 million this year on bridge repair and replacement work.

At that level of spending, it could take 15 to 20 more years to fix all the older bridges across the commonwealth that are currently in need of repair.

Also they said that the bridge was inspected two years ago and Penndot gave it a 4 rating out of 10 but Penndot states that that doesn't mean that the bridge is unsafe.  The news also stated that the state doesn't have enough money to fix the bridge.  They lastly stated that all the bridges around here are structurally deficcient. 

When I say that this is "the construction capital of the world" it is proven.  Every summer 90% of the roads around here are being worked on b/c they can't do it right the first time around. 

Toodles!

Ok, so like I've said before I have two cats, the momma cat and her baby Toby.  Ok of course they are male and female and in the animal world when it comes to sex it doesn't matter if your related.  When we got these cats I kept telling Matt that we need to get them fixed and he just kept saying "we will, we will".  When the momma cat was in heat a couple of months ago Toby never bothered with her, but this time is a different story.  I woke up the other day to this weird growling noise right beside me and when I opened my eyes I saw the most disgusting sight.  I was so mad.  All Matt could say was "well, we just have to keep an eye on them."  Hello?  I'm not going to follow these cats all over the place all day long watching them.  He keeps throwing in my face that these are his cats and not mine so if something happens then he is going to suffer the consequences not me and I told him that.  This is just making me sick.  It is so disgusting.  Toby was my buddy and now I just can't look at him the same way.  I haven't been giving him the attention that I usually do so I guess it hurt his feelings b/c last night when I went to bed he just layed beside me just looking at me with the sadest eyes and today when I got up I got on the computer to email Matt to do something about these cats b/c they are throwing up left and right and Toby hopped up here in front of me and just looked at me and then climbed on my shoulder and then on my back and then back on the desk and was just letting me pet him and he was just purring  and enjoying the attention.  This whole thing still makes me sick though.  Grrr!

Toodles!

Well, my Christmas was awesome.  I hope everyone else's was too.  Matt got me this beautiful gold necklace with a heart full of diamonds on it, yarn, a bratz doll (so that my friend and I can play with them together lol), a gift certificate to put towards my camera, and some snowmen because I collect them.  My parents got me this huge gift certificate for me to put towards my camera and get some more things, another gold necklace, and more gift certificates.  I visited all of my relatives and had a great time.  The night before Christmas Eve Matt's brother and friend came over and we got all kinds of beer and some tequila and played games and some drinking games, and man was I drunk lol.  On Christmas Eve Aubrey came over and we exchanged our gifts and she stayed here all day and baked cookies and did my hair and make-up and then that night Matt and I went to his mom's house for dinner and we exchanged gifts over there.  Then Matt's mom and boyfriend left for church and his sister went out so Matt, me, and his brother watched "A Christmas Story" on tv.  I've been tired the last couple of days so I haven't been on the computer to write about my Christmas.  Yesterday Matt told me that he won both of his fantasy football leagues and that he was going to give me $200 to put towards my car.  I'm so glad b/c now I can get the car and finally get a job then go back to school.  I am so psyched.  Well, I gotta go b/c I need to make dinner.

Toodles!

So my mom just told me today that this is the last year that Coca Cola is putting Santa Clause on their products because to many people are complaining that it offends them.  What the hell?????  I am so sick of people complaining about everything!!!  This offends them, that offends them.  Who cares????  Shut the hell up.  Everyone has their own flippin beliefs so let it be!!!  This society sucks anymore.  You can't say or do anything without it offending someone or someone taking it the wrong way and you getting sued or thrown in jail.  And people wonder why some people want to kill themselves or don't want to have children.  Who wants to live in a society where you can't celebrate your beliefs or speak your mind?  You say something bad about Bush then you get thrown in jail, you cut down a tree for Christmas and some environmentalist is sueing you cause your destroying nature.  Soon there isn't going to be a Christmas or any other holiday for that matter.  What is the point of being yourself if it offends someone?  Some people just need to shut the fuck up and respect others and stop thinking about their own damn selves!!!  Here are a few examples of people being stupid:  a couple of years ago I was working the midnight shift and a couple of my friends were there and I was talking to them and I pointed to the convient store (I worked in a truck stop, I worked in the food section and the other section was the convenient store) and this cop who was sitting in the restaurant gets up and comes over to me and wants my name and all of my info b/c he said that I was flipping him off even though you could clearly see that I was pointing to the store side and my friends even verified it for me.  I flippin ended up getting a $200 fine.  I was so pissed off.  The next day I ended up paying a visit to his girlfriend whom I went to school with and told her what happened so she let him have it and the fine was dropped.  Just a couple of months ago my friend thought that she was going to lose her job so she was talking to one of her friends at work and she said that she would just die if she lost her job b/c she has a car payment and she has her own place.  Someone overheard her and went to the supervisor who then went to the manager and within half an hour my friend was in an ambulance being taken to the hospital b/c she was so called threatening her life even though she wasn't.  Grrrrr people just piss me off!  Stop fucking wining and acting like your the only ones in the fucking world and let others celebrate their beliefs just as you do yours. 

If I offended anyone in this entry then I didn't intentionaly do it but this is how I feel and I'm keeping it as it is!

Well, this wknd was quite enjoyable.  Friday night Matt rented some movies, "The Devil's Rejects" and "Star Wars III".  Friday we watched the first movie.  Well, I only watched some of it, it was so disgusting, so gory, so twisted, that I mostly stayed out of the room.  I do have to say after seeing "1000 Corpses" and some of "The Devil's Rejects", that Rob Zombie is one sick and twisted dude.  Saturday we chilled here and Matt's brother came over for a bit and then they went to the bar for a bit.  They got back around 8 and Matt took me to the mall.  It was so busy there.  I wanted to get my mom's present and Aubrey's present but of course the mall didn't have a toy store and the book store didn't have what I wanted for my mom so we went down the road a little and stopped at toys r us and I got Aubrey's present, a Nighty Night Bratz doll.  Lol she's 25 and still loves barbies.  Guess I can't say much cause so do I.  Right beside toys r us was a Michael's craft store and a book store.  Michaels didn't have the yarn that I needed and the book store of course didn't have what I needed for my mom.  Grrrrr!  When we got back to the house we watched Star Wars III and I of course loved it.  Sunday my mom came and picked me up and we went shopping, I got all of my shopping done, well all except something for my mom.  My tree is purple and gold so I wrapped all my present in gold wrapping paper and I took purple ribbon and tied it around the presents and curled the ends.  They all look so pretty.  I'm relieved that I got it all done cause now I don't have to deal with all the business over the next week.  I know what I want to get my mom so its not going to be too bad going to the mall.  I can just get right in and get right out. 

Toodles!

I just can't wait till Christmas.  Matt is out right now buying my presents.  He asked what I wanted so I gave him a list and he just rolled his eyes.  I'm easy to buy for.  I told him that I didn't want anything but he insisted that he was getting me something.  So I need make up and a new hair dryer, so I wrote down what kind of dryer and what kind of make-up.  Originally I just told everyone to get me a gift certificate for Walmart b/c I want a digital camera and I didn't want anyone to spend that much money on me.  I figured that after I get all the certificates it should be enough to buy one.  I let it slip to Matt that I wanted a kodak digital camera, its what I bought my mom for mothers day and I like hers.  So he went on the computer at work today and got a consumer report on digital cameras.  He said that if he gets me one he isn't getting me a kodak b/c there are better ones out there.  I said that I didn't need an expensive one, just one that I could take pics with.  I'm not a hard person to buy for.  I don't need expensive things and if I want something expensive I save the money and buy it myself.  The only thing that I'm worried about is that my mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I told her and she asked why.  So I told her.  When my parents want something I always run out and buy it for them.  I'm just that kind of person.  I'm not mean and cold hearted like a lot of people think I am.  So what my parents do is when I want something they go out and buy it for me.  So, I don't know for sure that Matt is getting me a camera or that my parents are but I'm still worried that I may end of with two.  Then I'm gonna get mad cause they spent so much money on me but of course I'll be thankful.  I still have presents to buy b/c I couldn't finish the afghans on time.  Christmas is so close.  It's just coming to fast.

Toodles!