Obsession

I have a new obsession; excercising.  I can't get enough of it.  Today I worked on the treadmill, my strider, sit ups, push ups, lifted weights, worked on my butt, my calves, and my inner and outer thighes.  I really pushed myself today.  I didn't eat anything at all today and then I started excercising.  I put on a sweatshirt, sweatpants, heavy socks, but before I did that I wrapped myself in saran wrap, shut the door in the computer room and turned up the heat.  I pushed myself so hard that I got light headed, got sick and almost passed out.  I am determined to get back to the way I used to look no matter what it takes.  I'm no longer going to eat my soup anymore, and not eating meat.  I'm going to live off of veggies and fruit.  I'm gonna buy a bikini and hang it up in here.  I'm gonna buy magazines and hang up different excercises that I can do and print pictures of really hot girls and hang them up all over the place (I'm not gay but it'll push me to get thin again).  I just emailed Matt and asked him if he wanted to excercise with me when he gets home tonight but he told me that I shouldn't do anymore tonight.  This weekend I going and buying roller blades b/c my friend told me that she would go roller blading with me.  I'm also gonna go and buy a Tae Bo video b/c I lost mine, Hit the Spot Abs b/c I also lost that one too,  and some other workout videos.  I'm completely determined and absolutely nothing is going to change my mind.

Toodles!