Who needs friends?

You meet someone and you get an opinion of them and then you get to know that person (or so you thought) and you become friends (again, or so you thought).  You think the person is one way then you find out that they are not.  You find out that they are a lying, backstabbing fucker (pardon the language).  With the kind of friends that I have had I have come to the point that I don't want friends anymore.  You try to be the best person that you can be and its never good enough.  They make you think that they like you then you do some searching and find out that they can just care less if they are your friend.  They say one thing and mean another.  Sometimes they are your friend b/c they feel sorry for you and think that you need someone in your life to keep you happy.  Well guess again.  I don't need anyone feeling sorry for me.  I don't need someone who thinks that they are better than me or that they are better looking than me or that they can do everything and I can't.  I've been a hard worker, a good friend, and have always worked for what I've wanted.  I never ask anyone for anything no matter how much I need it.  I had a brand new car when I turned 18 (I totalled it the next winter), I had my own place by the time I was 20 and I was doing good until I met some guy (that's where I made my mistake but I've learned from it).  I've pretty much been by myself for I don't know how long now and I'm doing pretty damn good.  I have my cats, my crocheting, my blogging and sometimes Matt and will soon have my car and a job so I don't need anyone feeling fucking sorry for me.  I'm a good person and I always put people first.  I try to help people out and try to give the best advice that I can possibly give.  Yes sometimes I'm irritable but that doesn't make me a bad person.  Yes sometimes I have a bad outlook on life but who wouldn't when they've been through what I've been through in only 2 years?  I try my best to make the best of situations but sometimes its hard.  Yes I know that there are people who have it a hell of a lot worse than me, but I have a right to be down in the dumps sometimes, and I have a right to have a true friend not a so called friend who feels sorry for me.  I can make it in this world, I dont' need anyone to make me happy and to fill up my day.  I have goals that I am going to fulfill.  I know what I truely want and I know how to get it.  There are going to be bumps along the way and I'm on one now but I'll make it with or without any friends. I'm not saying that having friends is a bad thing.  What I am saying is that if you want to be someone's friend then be that person's friend.  Be a friend that does care.  Other's have feelings just like you.  Remember the old saying "do to others what you would want them to do to you" (or however the saying goes). 

Toodles!