Crafts, the country and California

Well after a full week of studying I finally learned how to crochet.  I am so excited cause now I can make cute poncho's, afghans, etc.  I love makeing crafts.  They sooth me.  Crocheting is especially calming.  Everyone tells me that I'm so creative.  I went to school for interior design but never got a job.  There is nothing around here.  If I want to make it big I would definately have to move.  I am seriously thinking about moving to California but its so far away and all my family is here.  My family told me to go ahead and go.  They sd that it would be good for me to get out into the real world and experience things for myself.  They sd it would probably be good for me.  I'm just so close to my parents that its so hard for me to go.  They sd that I can always fly back on the wknds.  Its just so scary growing up.  Sometimes I wish that I was still a kid.  You never have to worry about anything.  I thought growing up would be fun but it sucks.  Everyone who has been to California sd its great but I'm a total country girl.  I want a log cabin in the woods, no neighbors and a horse farm.  I loved living in the country.  It was so quiet.  We always had loud, crazy parties.  You never have to worry about anyone calling the cops on you.  Now I live in a housing thingy.  You know the kind.  Perfect neighbors, nice houses, everyone has a nice vehicle.  You always see people walking their dogs around the block and kids playing.  It sounds fake but thats where I live.  I hate it!  I can't be loud or have party's.  This place makes me sick cause its so perfect.  Oh well, gotta go.  Ran out of things to say. LOL