To live or not to live?

My life sucks so much.  I have nothing and noone ever believes in me.  Everyone always has to remind me that I screwed my life up even though I already know it.  I don't even want to live anymore.  I'm am so tired of people bringing me down.  When I actually start believing in myself someone starts telling me that I'll never do this or that.  Last night I thought about hanging myself.  I have nothing to look forward to.  My boyfriend admitted that he hates me, my parents won't let me move back home till I save some money to get my own place.  I don't have a car to live in or a job to save money.  My boyfriend wants me out now and I just don't know what to do.  Why did I do this to myself?  Why did I take the wrong road?  Everytime I get on the computer he thinks that I'm talking to someone even though I'm not.  I am so sick of being accused of doing things that I don't do.  When he goes to work he accuses me of having people here.  I sit here by myself all day.  I don't do anything.  He knows that we don't have the tools on the computer to chat.  I think he just uses it as an excuse to fight with me.  He knows about this journal and he wants to read it but I told him that it was about my feelings and that it wasn't any of his business.  I'm tired of having to prove myself to him.  I'm not doing it anymore.  Well gotta go b/c he's accusing me again and screaming at me.